For me inside

Well as of today, I don't understand why as I have many many good things in my life, why on earth, do I feel the need to find my parents approval. I am 34 and just having a really wonderful life as I would call it but when I am having good things happen, I find my mind thinking, why cant I be happy and not need approval from them. It kills me because instead of call my wonderful husband,  I want to call them and say, Guess what but if I do, I will always not get the response I want or so desire. It hurts and even deep down inside, I know they don't show me how proud they are, instead I am compared to my older brother. It hurts because I never thought, growing up, what I wanted or where I would be. I wanted to help others, somehow , doing something. I  never knew what, just knew I wanted to make some kind of impact. I never get the happy, way to go, I want. Why cant I be happy with what I DO have ? I don't understand myself and why I think of this or why I feel this way. I want to feel happy deep down inside my soul but how do you reach that point ?